On Friday KC came by our house. The kids and I were busy doing school even though it was after lunch. Collin got up and went over to KC and told him this story. "Hey Kacey, you know what Kobe did last night? He came into our room last night and started saying that he just realized that you and Sandreia wouldn't be coming back to Brasil with us and he started sobbing. He cried for like a half hour."
When I heard Collin tell this, I was totally unprepared for it, not having sensed recently anything in Kobe, nor having heard anything from him. It doesn't surprise me really that I didn't hear anything because he's our quiet one, but I'm really glad that I heard it from Collin. I instantly started crying. My heart is so sensitive and tender when it comes to my kids and their burdens that my tears just pop out on their own accord.
Collin sat back down next to me and then noticed that tears were streaking down my cheeks. I was trying to stop so I wouldn't worry him, but I just couldn't. Then Kobe walked in the room for help with his math. He saw me crying and hesitated in asking for help, but I called him over to me. He's too big to fit on my lap, but I pulled him down any ways. Tears sprung to his eyes too. I just held him and whispered to him that it was ok, I told him that I want him to come to me instead of crying without me knowing about it. I want to help him through it and comfort him. I also asked him if he felt angry at having to leave Kacey and Sandreia. He said he wasn't, just sad. I assured him that even if he was angry, it doesn't matter, that I want him to come to me so that we can work through it together. I know that God understands. God asks us to do hard things sometimes.
My heart is already tearing again at the process of saying goodbye, but as I see my kids go through it, my hurt is compounded by the sadness they feel. Not that I compare what we're going through with Jesus' pain in facing the cross, but in the garden of Gethsemani, He asked that this cup pass from Him, yet followed by not His will be done, but the Father's. So I know that He understands hard things, at the same time, I follow His example of laying down his own life for the Father's will to be done. I gave my life to Him a long time ago. My life is no longer about me, but about Him. That makes things hard sometimes.
Pray for us as we help our kids make this transition well and as we leave Kacey and Sandreia as well as the rest of our family.
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Everett Family - We will continue to be praying for your family and will add the transition without Kacey and Sandreia to that prayer as well.
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